Tonia. Was a good guy. he wasnt a bully. His karma was good. His friend had biin bullied, and biin a bully. But overall, (overall is a key lens of analysis) he was a cool guy. His friends pushed the culture subtly forward but he just gently went with the culture. He had a kid but was a kid. So what was his vice? He didnt drink ever. He just worked out. And then after the gym, it was back to his mrs. But this life was enough. Tonny’s is the only happy story in this, but u could still ask him for some unhappy stories 😉
Tee total tonia totally had balance, but he was not immune from the human condition, he conquered fear but had to fight that battle many times to win it, his mental health was good but he didnt talk about it much – is that good? Young writers – is that good? Fuck fame, that is good. As u get older u see, u have (slightly) more answers and less questions. no cheating no leaving. no getting high on the day of travel integrity
he has a good life and a good wife (happy wifey happy lifey and all) but he still cheats? why ? because no human is righteous and many other humans pave ur way to becoming a good human being. you also know why? coz he had an adventurous spirit, like we all do, he wanted to try one of everything and that pushed a lot of things away – you can never want it too much you see, you know. and then yeah should have put a question mark there u grammar nazi but im more of a hegelian u see. now thats a nice narrative device (teacchers, lke myself, probably, and like u, definelty wouold have circled that little lower case n. sadistic coz of my own bad life. and is tstill driving them nuts right now. . should have put the dots / full stops in a different place too 😉 but went to a state school for most of my life till bursary so allow me ;). antihero hero
anyway back to the “story” tonia got away with cheating coz his wife loved him.
controversial or normal u decide. escapism, from the life u built, to forget urself u built it as Kevin bridges said “” (should have quoted it back then, goddamn echoes from proper teachers and bullshit about the “proper” (Happy Now) way to do things
simple pleasures range and / series coming soon: (its just golf, tonia would like that, and haircuts) any1 would like that. social justice x charity thats his brother.
and some people want street justice but that doenst last. live by the sword u die by the sword my friend slow down
but escapism lasts and he persists and life is fun and he has kids
and requited love
and even unrequited love (someteiems a break up/break off is requited love that has just EVER SO JUSTLY JUST become unrequited – and then it becomes a good type of way to wright and right but what a beautiful way that is for god/whatever u believe in in humanity to inspire us. BETTER TO HAVE LOVED AND LOST THAN NEVER TO HAVE LOVED AT ALL
WHO ELSE BUT TONIA knows what tonia else will do with these relentless passions, MAYBE HELL GO TO WORK, maybe hell get more awtches.
MAYBE IL DRAW ART MAYBE IL SPIT BARS>
CREATIVE OR CONSUMER WE JUST WANT TO ESCAPE SOMETHING se JUST TO GET BACK TO GOD. SOME OF US TAKE LONGER THAN OTHERS DIFFERENT COURSES FOR DIFFERENT HORSES AND ALL THAT AND U KNOW HWAT THIS WRITING I HOPE I HOPE THIS WRITING HELPS U SLEEP X DROP GOOD GEMS IN TO CONVERSATION
and also why? because god takes those who arent righteous and corrects their way